..letting others speak my thoughts..because I sure as hell can't.

Some simple yet wise words by Meredith Grey.

"No matter how thick skinned we try to be, there's millions of electrifying nerve endings in here. Open and exposed and feeling way too much. Try as we might to keep from feeling pain, sometimes it's just unavoidable. Sometimes that's the only thing left - just feeling."

"Pain. You just have to ride it out. You can only hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breathe deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it and life always makes more."

"..knowing is better than wondering..waking is better than sleeping..And that even the biggest failure, even the worst intractable mistake beats the hell out of never trying."

"Communication. It's the first thing we really learn in life. The funny thing is, once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking, the harder it becomes to know what to say. Or how to ask for what we really need." 

"Maybe we're not supposed to be happy. Maybe gratitude has nothing to do with joy. Maybe being grateful means recognizing what you have for what it is. Appreciating small victories. Admiring the struggle it takes simply to be human. Maybe we're thankful for the familiar things we know. And maybe we're thankful for the things we'll never know. At the end of the day, the fact that we have the courage to still be standing is reason enough to celebrate."

"You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true." 

..and if you want to really know how I'm feeling, listen to these songs:

1. Heartbreak Warfare by John Mayer

2. We Might As Well Be Strangers by Keane

3. Gravity by Sara Bareilles

4. Between the Lines by Sara Bareilles

5. Warning Sign by Coldplay

6. Split Screen Sadness by John Mayer

7. Hear Me Out by Frou Frou

..it's like 2004 circa freshman year at JMU all over again..

I've officially become my own worst nightmare.